Howdy, folks. Well it's been a disney-rific week. Last friday, I was at Mountain Sun with Mike, and blah blah blah, I talked him into driving out to Cali Cali with me. We spent the entire day Saturday cleaning his apartment out, and finally got onto the road at 10:30, accompanied by Harry Potter on tape. Wow. That's all I can say about Goblet of Fire. That, and it makes driving go a bazillion times faster. we pulled into OP around 7 or so, which is wicked good time, considering we are pulling a trailer.

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Twice-baked potatoes rule all

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we went to zuma the next day, i got a weird ass burn. Malibu Yogurt was good. Cruising down the PCH rocks all.


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Santa Barbara the next day. My school will be cool. The beach is right across the street. they need to comb it though. We shall see. I saw Masked and Anonymous in West LA that night. I can see why 2 theatres are holding it in all of LA. It's very strange, and not particularly good. The soundtrack made the movie worth it, though.

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I had an idea that night. Disneyland. So yesterday, we went. and it was fun. But, Fucking A, Space Mountain is closed till 2005. I mean, what the living fack! How can they close the best ride at the park? So yeah, we went on 4 rides, left, went to In n Out for the 3rd time in 4 days, then hoped from the 5, to the 605, to the 91, to the beach. Manhattan Beach. Heaven on Earth? maybe. We walked the pier, watched the surfers, sat on the sand, called a friend. They showed up, we went to a bar in Hermosa Beach, had a few beers, saw his new apartment in Torrance, then went off in to the night.


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I just got back from the airport, where Mike is meeting some friends. I just read the journal entries of the last week. I thought I'd update. I think I'll get my car washed, then read Harry Potter # 5. I'm excited. Aren't we all? That reminds me... I gotta look for an apartment in SB. I might do that.

Date:	2003-08-06 18:32
Subject:	The Austrians are coming!!!!!!
Security:	Public
Mood:	amused
Music:	I Want Your Girlfriend to be My Girlfriend- Reel Big Fish

I just heard Arnie will be running. Great news for California. Just watch. Down with Grey Davis.

I picked up the trailor today. as soon as i finish (start) my papers, i will pack up. then tomorrow morning i clean and do errands, and i'm on the road at 3:30.

Date:	2003-08-04 23:12
Subject:	Surprise
Security:	Public
Mood:	blah
Music:	Dirty Glass-Dropkick Murphys

I know i said i wasn't gonna update anymore, well screw you.
So, concerts are coming up. I have 2 tickets for Bad Religion at the house of blues. who wants to go?

next, Dropkick Murphys at Ventura Theatre. Going with dad, Mark and Mark's son. Mark and my dad won't be moshing with me. lol.

LA on the 8th. We got killer seats for EK's majestic return to Dodger Stadium. I'm talking Field level, Aisle 2, row a, seats 1-2. Pimp seats. Jealous? yes, you are.

the song of the moment:

Murphy, Murphy, darling dear
I long for you now night and day
Your pain was my pleasure, your sorrow my joy
I feel now I've lost you to health and good cheer
Darcy, when I met you I was five years too young
A boy beyond his age, or so I'd tell someone
Anyone who'd listen and a few who couldn't care
Still I welcomed you with open arms, my love I did share

(chorus)
Darcy, Darcy darling dear,
You left me dying, crying there
In whiskey, gin, and pints of beer
I fell for you my darling dear

You shut me off and you showed me the door
But you always came crawling back begging me for more
I showed you kindness, a stool, and a tab
Then you poured me my pain in a dirty glass
(Yeah, you left him bloody, battered, penniless, and poor)
You know, I often stopped and wondered how you made it through my door
With my brother's new non-duplicate registry ID
Well you bit off more than you could chew the first day you met me.

You weren't the first to court me mister you won't be the last
Oh, sure I wasn't honey, I know all about your past
Listen to the big shot with his pager on call
You spent most of those nights in my bathroom stall
(Yeah, you got him high, but you left him low)
Mind you own business, boy, how was I to know
That he ws just a fiend and a no-good cheat
Well it's all in the past bitch 'cause now I've got it beat.

i enjoyed this convo. hope you do too.



brendanl99 (11:00:46 PM): did you see it?
nbassist (11:00:56 PM): of course not... I just woke up
brendanl99 (11:01:07 PM): the movie
nbassist (11:01:20 PM): oh, yes
brendanl99 (11:01:25 PM): how was it
nbassist (11:01:31 PM): the soundtrack was great
brendanl99 (11:01:36 PM): the story?
nbassist (11:01:42 PM): the soundtrack was great
brendanl99 (11:01:47 PM): dammit
brendanl99 (11:01:52 PM): dont be that way
nbassist (11:01:54 PM): ok, I'll say this
nbassist (11:02:03 PM): it wasn't necessarily a bad movie
brendanl99 (11:02:11 PM): but you expected better?
nbassist (11:02:30 PM): but it was so far over my and all of my friends heads that none of us could form an opinion
brendanl99 (11:02:42 PM): oh
nbassist (11:02:51 PM): I can't say I expected better because I'm still not sure if it's good
brendanl99 (11:02:51 PM): wow
brendanl99 (11:03:03 PM): maybe if you see it again
nbassist (11:03:07 PM): maybe
nbassist (11:03:12 PM): but not while in theatres
nbassist (11:03:36 PM): my friend Dana wants to watch it 2 or 3 more times before forming an opinion but is "gleefully indifferent"
brendanl99 (11:03:46 PM): gleefully
brendanl99 (11:03:48 PM): ?
nbassist (11:03:54 PM): Gloria, on the other hand, said the movie was "entertainingly bad"
brendanl99 (11:04:08 PM): what the hell kind of friends do you have
nbassist (11:04:22 PM): and I liked the movie in general, but can't give a solid review besides the fact that I enjoyed bits and pieces that I did get
nbassist (11:04:28 PM): intellectuals...
nbassist (11:04:46 PM): and trust me, you'd need to be an intellectual to even try and get the movie
brendanl99 (11:06:34 PM): i heard if you are a dylan fan you like it if not you think it's pompous
brendanl99 (11:06:46 PM): is it worse than mulhoulland drive
nbassist (11:06:59 PM): I hated Mulholland Drive
nbassist (11:07:02 PM): so no
brendanl99 (11:07:10 PM): as far as understanding it
nbassist (11:07:25 PM): I rank it on the same wave as Waiting for Godot
brendanl99 (11:07:34 PM): oh and the director said it was made purposefully unsatisfying
nbassist (11:08:09 PM): basically, each and every conversation has a different and equall-y important point only to have the ending monologue tell you to ignore any points and form your own opinion
brendanl99 (11:08:28 PM): that's dylan for you
nbassist (11:08:37 PM): I guess
brendanl99 (11:08:57 PM): well more like eminem
nbassist (11:09:00 PM): but I think the reason why Dylan fans like it is because at least they can enjoy the music even if they don't get the meaning
nbassist (11:09:03 PM): not at all
brendanl99 (11:09:11 PM): joke
nbassist (11:09:26 PM): Eminem would be closer to "I'm gonna say this and then you do the opposite because this is obviously not a real opinion"
nbassist (11:09:47 PM): I thoroughly enjoyed 8 Mile
brendanl99 (11:10:03 PM): i didn't thoroughly enjoy it, but it was good
nbassist (11:11:26 PM): yes, yes it was

Date:	2003-07-22 11:27
Subject:	end of the line
Security:	Public
Mood:	angry
Music:	The Weight- The Band

I've come to realize that I hate so much about what I do with myself. I hate that I don't read anymore. I hate that I waste my time in front of this computer. I hate I'm out of shape. I hate that I sleep in sometimes. I can be a better, more productive person than what I am. So that said, screw livejournal, this is my last entry ever, and screw everyone who doesnt give a fuck bout me. I leave with a song.



I pulled into Nazareth, was feelin' 'bout half past dead
I just need some place where I can lay my head
"Hey, mister, can you tell me where a man might find a bed?"
He just grinned and shook my hand, and "No" was all he said

Take a load off Fanny
Take a load for free
Take a load off Fanny
And (and) (and) you can put the load right on me

Picked up my bag, went lookin' for a place to hide
When I saw Carmen and the Devil walkin' side by side
I said, "Hey, Carmen, come on, let's go downtown"
She said, "I gotta go, but m'friend can stick around"

Take a load off Fanny
Take a load for free
Take a load off Fanny
And (and) (and) you can put the load right on me

Go down, Miss Moses, there's nothin' you can say
It's just old Luke, and Luke's waitin' on the Judgement Day
"Well Luke, my friend, what about young Anna Lee?"
He said, "Do me a favour, son, won't you stay an' keep Anna Lee company?"

Take a load off Fanny
Take a load for free
Take a load off Fanny
And (and) (and) you can put the load right on me

Crazy Chester followed me, and he caught me in the fog
He said, "I will fix your rack, if you'll take Jack, my dog"
I said, "Wait a minute, Chester, I'm a peaceful man"
He said, "That's OK, just feed him when you can"

Take a load off Fanny
Take a load for free
Take a load off Fanny
And (and) (and) you can put the load right on me

Catch a cannon ball now, to take me down the line
My bag is sinking low and I do believe it's time
To get back to Miss Fanny, you know she's the only one
Who sent me here with her regards for everyone

Take a load off Fanny
Take a load for free
Take a load off Fanny
And (and) (and) you can put the load right on me


ok, fine... one more song. A sad one too:

Today is the day
For dancing and for singing
The birds in the trees and all
The bells are ringing
The sun is in the sky
Is bright as bright second light
Is bright oh god I hope I'm alright

Cause I'm gonna cry
Hold on, hold on
Slow down, slow down
You're out of touch
Out of touch
'Cause there is no design for life
There's no devil's haircut in my mind
There is not a wonderwall to climb
To climb or step around
But there is a slide show and it's so slow
Flashing through my mind

Today was the day
But only for the first time
Hold on, hold on
Slow down, slow down
You're out of touch
Out of touch

'Cause there is no design for life
There is no devil's haircut in your mind
There is not a wonderwall
To climb or step around
But there is a slidesshow and it's so slow
Flashing through my mind

Today was the day
But only for the first time
I hope it's not the last time


Slideshow-Travis

Date:	2003-07-19 15:40
Subject:	Some of America's Great Adulturers
Security:	Public
Mood:	bouncy
Music:	Mrs. Robinson-Simon and Garfunkle

for those whose partner in life just wasn't good enough or were viciously seduced by their parents' friend:

Thomas Jefferson
John Fitzgerald Kennedy
Micheal Jordan
Kobe Bryant
Benjamin Braddock

Guess which movie I just saw?

War looms on my mind like gravy and apple sauce in a pond of bricks (figure that metaphor out). People speak of the horrors of war, but they have never experienced it. war kills so many people. Democrats eat babies for brunch every other tuesday.

Date:	2003-07-16 12:02
Subject:	Heat of the Night
Security:	Public
Mood:	amused
Music:	Midnight Sun-AFI

Last night was... interesting. 3 hours of Texas Hold em, plenty of beer. The allstar game was not a bad game. I wanted the AL to win. Too bad for Gagne, but if you are gonna blow a game, it's best to do it when it doesnt matter. And it STILL DOESN'T MATTER BUD! So I got home, and someone IMed me... and...


What went down on the side of the road?
What I saw at the edge of the sea.
Only those elements
time
cannot wear,
and they follow.
What seeped out throught the cracks in
time,
what sucks out the color in me?
What awaits beyond infinity?
Beyond and to all time I stand.
What blew in with the great gale?
What weighed down the falling leaves?
What came forth from the remains?
What has always lived and gone unseen?
What has caused the night to fall?
Who speaks of eternity?
Who awakes to night eternally?

Date:	2003-07-14 21:07
Subject:	Celebrity Softball>*
Security:	Public
Mood:	hot
Music:	Crash-DMB

I HAD written something about my roommate and the Dodgers and other stuff, but LJ sucks sometimes. I will re-type this part:


Screw you guys who don't like my journal. I didn't know it was my job to write down your thoughts.

Date:	2003-07-14 09:34
Subject:	the world is a mirror
Security:	Public
Mood:	blank
Music:	whole lotta love- Led Zepplin

They say beauty is in the eye of the beholder. It's a matter of taste. They say beauty is only skin deep, but ugly goes way down to the bone. They say a picture is worth a thousand words. And Helen of Troy launched a thousand ships. There are exotic beauties. Hidden gems. Diamonds in the rough. The crown jewel. There are beauty queens. Ugly ducklings. Acquired tastes. Late-bloomers. Classic beauties. There are looks that kill. Looks to die for. Looks that turn heads and looks that stop traffic. But looks aren't everything. You can't judge a book by its cover. Cuz the prettier the face the dumber the head. But could be, they're more than just a pretty face. For beauty comes in all shapes and forms. And it's what's on the inside that really matters. For a thing of beauty is a joy forever. But remember: The star that burns brightest burns briefest. And every rose has its thorn.


"Better to be fake pretty than real ugly"

Back on St Patty's day, when Emily was in my life, we decided to go out. We ended up at this club. Fast forward to 2 AM. We are sitting on a curb, and this girl is crying. She's drunk, can't find her friend. A few minutes later, she's walking down the ally with some guy. She was just raped. I console her, take her down the stairs to get her shoes, take her back up. She needs a ride home, so I, being sober, take her home. We get to a friends house, I sleep on the couch, I wake up at 10 and drive her back to Boulder to get her car. I go home for Spring Break. I come back. "Brendan, you were in the paper." "oh really?" I was, the girl had pressed charges. I called the cops. They interviewed me. That was over 3 months ago. Last week, I got subpeonaed. Today, an investigator for the defendant knocks on my door. I just finished talking to her. Prelim is on the 30th of July. The trial could still be going a year from now. Since I am leaving, They'd pay for my flight and hotel room for when I am in town. I won't get miles though.

I've discovered that I have the power to go Super-Saiyan, and that my personality closely resembles Gohan. Except I'm not a little bitch.

(greatest movie...ever? we will see)


Buckets of rain
Buckets of tears
Got all them buckets comin' out of my ears.
Buckets of moonbeams in my hand,
I got all the love, honey baby,
You can stand.

I been meek
And hard like an oak
I seen pretty people disappear like smoke.
Friends will arrive, friends will disappear,
If you want me, honey baby,
I'll be here.

Like your smile
And your fingertips
Like the way that you move your lips.
I like the cool way you look at me,
Everything about you is bringing me
Misery.

Little red wagon
Little red bike
I ain't no monkey but I know what I like.
I like the way you love me strong and slow,
I'm takin' you with me, honey baby,
When I go.

Life is sad
Life is a bust
All ya can do is do what you must.
You do what you must do and ya do it well,
I'll do it for you, honey baby,
Can't you tell?

and I doubt anyone cares about me, either.

Date:	2003-07-12 13:15
Subject:	Screw you guys....
Security:	Public
Mood:	pissed off
Music:	Come Sail Away-Cartman

Cartman is a wonderous wordsmith. "Poor people piss me off," "we saved the baby cows from being eaten and now we are god damn, no good, dirty hippies!" etc. One of the best, is "Screw you guys, I'm going home." And that is how I feel. I feel like everyone talks behind my back and that no one actually likes me. I'd rather people tell me they don't like me and why. then I'd leave you all the fug alone. Dodger game tonight. whoopdedoo.

I hope you all have great lives. I'm just kinda pissed off.

Date:	2003-07-11 22:10
Subject:	One Word
Security:	Public
Mood:	(en route to getting drunk)
Music:	I Just Can't Get Enough-Depeche Mode

Beirut Friday

"Hey, ain't life wonderful? Wonderful, wonderful, wonderful... Isn't it wonderful now?"

I close my eyes when I get too sad
I think thoughts that I know are bad
Close my eyes and I count to ten
Hope it's over when I open them

I want the things that I had before
Like a Star Wars poster on my bedroom door
I wish I could count to ten
Make everything be wonderful again

Hope my mom and I hope my dad
Will figure out why they get so mad
Hear them scream, I hear them fight
They say bad words that make me wanna cry

Close my eyes when I go to bed
And I dream of angels who make me smile
I feel better when I hear them say
Everything will be wonderful someday

Promises mean everything when you're little
And the world's so big
I just don't understand how
You can smile with all those tears in your eyes
Tell me everything is wonderful now

Please don't tell me everything is wonderful now

I go to school and I run and play
I tell the kids that it's all okay
I laugh aloud so my friends won't know
When the bell rings I just don't wanna go home

Go to my room and I close my eyes
I make believe that I have a new life
I don't believe you when you say
Everything will be wonderful someday

Promises mean everything when you're little
And the world is so big
I just don't understand how
You can smile with all those tears in your eyes
When you tell me everything is wonderful now

No
No, I don't wanna hear you tell me everything is wonderful now
No
No, I don't wanna hear you tell me everything is wonderful now

I don't wanna hear you say
That I will understand someday
No, no, no, no
I don't wanna hear you say
You both have grown in a different way
No, no, no, no
I don't wanna meet your friends
And I don't wanna start over again
I just want my life to be the same
Just like it used to be
Some days I hate everything

summertime and the livin's easy
and bradley's on the microphone w/ ras m.g.
all the people in the dance will agree
that we are well qualified to represent the LBC
me and louie run to the party
dance to the rhythm it gets harder me and my girl got this relationship
i love her so bad but she treats me like...
on lock down like a penitentiary she
spreads her lovin' all over and when she gets home there’s none left for me
[chorus]
oh take this veil from off my eyes
a burning sun will one day rise
so what am i gonna be doin' for a wife
i guess i'll have to play it myself show them how we come off the shelf
[chorus]
evil i've come to tell you that she's evil most definately
evil ornery scandalous and evil the
tension is getting hotter i'd like to hold her head underwater

Early in the morning, risin' to the street
Light me up that cigarette and I strap shoes on my feet
Got to find a reason, a reason things went wrong
Got to find a reason why my money's all gone

I got a dalmation, and I can still get high
I can play the guitar like a mother fucking riot
Life is (too short), so love the one you got
Cause you might get runover or you might get shot

Never start no static I just get it off my chest
Never had to battle with no bulletproof vest
Take a small example, take a tip from me
Take all of your money, give it all to charity
Love is what I got
It's within my reach

And the Sublime style's still straight from Long Beach
It all comes back to you, you'll finally get what you deserve
Try and test that you're bound to get served
Love's what I got
Don't start a riot
You'll feel it when the dance gets hot

Lovin', is what I got, I said remember that
Lovin', is what I got, I said remember that

(That's) why I don't cry when my dog runs away
I don't get angry at the bills I have to pay
I don't get angry when my Mom smokes pot
Hits the bottle and goes right to the rock
Fuckin' and fightin', it's all the same
Livin' with Louie dog's the only way to stay sane
Let the lovin', let the lovin' come back to me

Lovin', is what I got, I said remember that
Lovin', is what I got, I said remember that

Lovin', is what I got, I said remember that
Lovin', is what I got, I said remember that

Lovin', is what I got, I said remember that
Lovin', is what I got, I said remember that

Lovin', is what I got, I said remember that
Lovin', is what I got, I got I got I got I...got

Yo, VIP, Let's kick it!

Ice Ice Baby, Ice Ice Baby
All right stop, Collaborate and listen
Ice is back with my brand new invention
Something grabs a hold of me tightly
Then I flow like a harpoon daily and nightly
Will it ever stop? Yo -- I don't know
Turn off the lights and I'll glow
To the extreme I rock a mic like a vandal
Light up a stage and wax a chump like a candle.

Dance, Bum rush the speaker that booms
I'm killing your brain like a poisonous mushroom
Deadly, when I play a dope melody
Anything less than the best is a felony
Love it or leave it, You better gain way
You better hit bull's eye, The kid don't play
If there was a problem, Yo, I'll solve it
Check out the hook while my DJ revolves it

Ice Ice Baby Vanilla, Ice Ice Baby Vanilla
Ice Ice Baby Vanilla, Ice Ice Baby Vanilla

Now that the party is jumping
With the bass kicked in, the Vegas are pumpin'
Quick to the point, to the point no faking
I'm cooking MCs like a pound of bacon
Burning them if they're not quick and nimble
I go crazy when I hear a cymbal
And a hi hat with a souped up tempo
I'm on a roll and it's time to go solo
Rollin' in my 5.0
With my ragtop down so my hair can blow
The girlies on standby, Waving just to say Hi
Did you stop? No -- I just drove by
Kept on pursuing to the next stop
I busted a left and I'm heading to the next block
That block was dead

Yo -- so I continued to A1A Beachfront Ave.
Girls were hot wearing less than bikinis
Rockman lovers driving Lamborghinis
Jealous 'cause I'm out geting mine
Shay with a gauge and Vanilla with a nine
Reading for the chumps on the wall
The chumps acting ill because they're so full of "Eight Ball"
Gunshots ranged out like a bell
I grabbed my nine -- All I heard were shells
Falling on the concrete real fast
Jumped in my car, slammed on the gas
Bumper to bumper the avenue's packed
I'm trying to get away before the jackers jack
Police on the scene, You know what I mean
They passed me up, confronted all the dope fiends
If there was a problem, You, I'll solve it
Check out the hook while my DJ revolves it

Ice Ice Baby Vanilla, Ice Ice Baby Vanilla
Ice Ice Baby Vanilla, Ice Ice Baby Vanilla

Take heed, 'cause I'm a lyrical poet
Miami's on the scene just in case you didn't know it
My town, that created all the bass sound
Enough to shake and kick holes in the ground
'Cause my style's like a chemical spill
Feasible rhymes that you can vision and feel
Conducted and formed, This is a hell of a concept
We make it hype and you want to step with this
Shay plays on the fade, slice like a ninja
Cut like a razor blade so fast, Other DJs say, "damn"
If my rhyme was a drug, I'd sell it by the gram
Keep my composure when it's time to get loose
Magnetized by the mic while I kick my juice
If there was a problem, Yo -- I'll solve it!
Check out the hook while Deshay revolves it.

Ice Ice Baby Vanilla, Ice Ice Baby Vanilla
Ice Ice Baby Vanilla, Ice Ice Baby Vanilla

Yo man -- Let's get out of here! Word to your mother!

Ice Ice Baby Too cold, Ice Ice Baby Too cold Too cold
Ice Ice Baby Too cold Too cold, Ice Ice Baby Too cold Too cold

Date:	2003-07-08 00:11
Subject:	New song for now
Security:	Public
Mood:	peaceful
Music:	In My Life-Beatles

There are places I'll remember
All my life though some have changed
Some forever not for better
Some have gone and some remain
All these places have their moments
With lovers and friends I still can recall
Some are dead and some are living
In my life I've loved them all

But of all these friends and lovers
There is no one compares with you
And these memories lose their meaning
When I think of love as something new
Though I know I'll never lose affection
For people and things that went before
I know I'll often stop and think about them
In my life I love you more

Though I know I'll never lose affection
For people and things that went before
I know I'll often stop and think about them
In my life I love you more
In my life I love you more